Bee-one of a kind

2009-12-05T15:29:00.001+08:00

I'm a Single Tear.

You cry less than most people do when they feel they must cry.

Your tears are easy to bring out but they are few.

Behind your eyes are tears waiting to get out,

but you tend to make them stop by hiding your feelings.

You keep them bottled up inside and dont want anyone to see.

You must let them out and dont be afraid to let others see your tears.

Your emotions are dangerous when packed into your heart and when packed enough,

they will get out eventually.

They could be very dangerous to you or others, so take heed.

Peach Fruit Tarts

2009-10-21T23:40:00.005+08:00

Peach Fruit Tarts

*Practise Mode*

Making the pastry;

Butter

Sugar

Egg

Flour

Vanilla Essence

Greased the mould will butter

Flatten the dough and chilled inside the fridge

Press dough into tart moulds

Baked for 15 minutes and cool it

Making the custard filling;
Custard Powder
Corn Flour

Milk

Sugar

Vanilla Essence

Add Peach or other fruits that you like

The.Peach.Fruit.Tarts

End

2009-07-22T01:42:00.003+08:00

first time of my life

for the first time of my life;

i have never felt so touched before

tears nearly rolled down my cheeks

but i controlled

i dont want anyone to see that im touched

after seeing the present and cake,

im not able to control myself anymore

i know im silly

in fact,

yes i am

2009-05-24T22:29:00.001+08:00

BOY BEFORE FLOWER

my current addiction

hahahahahahaaha

2009-05-20T00:36:00.003+08:00

YES, i am pessimistic

i always think of the negative side

and

i am really very unhappy with my life now

im working for what?

money?

experience?

while im working,

im losing my freedom,

my spare time

my r/s, my frens

and many more things

so what now

to continue to earn money and gain experience

and at the same time to lose my freedom?

WHAT THE FUCK

I REALLY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT SHOULD I DO

im so lost and speechless now

2009-05-13T23:59:00.004+08:00

i cant believe im graduating tomorrow.

hahahaha

3 years just passed like that
now we are all working adults
I CANT BELIEVE IT !!

2009-05-06T21:35:00.005+08:00

Happy 22nd Birthday Dar

2009-05-02T23:20:00.004+08:00

Fire in her eyes

The way she move

She got the fire in her eyes !

She so dangerous

She's so dangerous

She's so scandalous

I love the scandal

i cant get this song out of my mind.

alright.
i know im slow
but

im starting to love this phone

2009-04-27T22:56:00.002+08:00

no idea whats going on

its seem like;

im all alone

i miss this kind of life

2009-04-26T23:33:00.008+08:00

see
how much i miss my night life
):

working life totally sucks leh
esp when you have to work on sat and sun
and only get one day off everyweek

i have nothing interesting to blog
because basically
everyday im working
and surrounded by tress & insects

cant stay up late every night
cause im sure i will look like a zombie the next day i go work
everyday is sleep early and wake up early
this is what people sae "healthy living"

MY ASS LAR
so no life at all

I DONT LIKE THIS KIND OF LIFE
I DONT WANT THIS KIND OF LIFE

2009-04-22T22:36:00.003+08:00

im not happy
not happy at all

i think im getting more and more no life
):

its hard to say goodbye

2009-04-20T23:49:00.003+08:00

its so hard to say goodbye

but i still have to say

goodbye adidas

goodbye RC team

i'll miss you guys for sure

CHECK OUT MY CAR. hahahahaha

2009-04-05T22:36:00.013+08:00

my car for the weekend

White Vintage Mercedes Benz

hohohohoho

lim bei drive a mercedes Benz hor

mai siao siao.
LOL

alright
let me tell you guy how the fuck i will got this car

it started off like this
ching's bf rented a car from this "Uncle" for ching's 21st bday
and he got a Nissan Sunny for 50bucks
quite a good deal i thought
cause normally people dont rent one day for weekend one

so
since i got the urge to drive
and i only want to drive for one day also
i decided to rent from the "Uncle"
i called him up and asked him got what car for me to rent
at first i thought he got many different model for me to choose can
so i meet up with him
and guessed what
he drove a Vintage Black Mercedes Benz super log cock lar
bo bian and i got up his car
and he drove me to his place

and he told me he got this white Mercedes Benz
and a Mazda for me to choose
at first i stil think there might be hope
maybe the Mazda will be better

END UP
sighs
the Mazda was worse can.
LOL
like some malaysia car
fucking log cock
even worse than the white Mercedes Benz
at the moment
im fucking depresssed lar
im serious lor.
im paying for this kind of CAR?
but i dont dare to tell the Uncle that i dont want to rent anymore

so
brian & i decided to take the White Mercedes Benz
):

when i sat inside the car
i really want to CRY
hahahahahahaha
its fucking old school can
i din know Mercedes dont have a Hand Brake
they uses Foot Brake instead
ALAMAK
bo bian lar
just DRIVE LIAO LOR

hahaha
and i drove to Novena Sq to meet yin
the moment i met her
i told her how lousy my car was
was super duper extremely lousy & log cock
but i din tell her the brand lar
i asked her to search for the car later in the car park
she went up to the car park
straight away she searched for P-Plate first
TMD
HAHAHA
and eventually she walked past the Mercedes without noticing it
brian & i were giggling behind her
we showed her the car in the end

she was like "OKAY WHAT, MERCEDES LEH"
im like "WA LAN EH, MERCEDES SO WHAT, the car so LOG COCK"
lol

we decided to drove to Cathay to wait for shir and her bro
when we reached
the first thing we thought of was to play Wii
since we have to wait for them to reach

we rented Guitar Hero
always wanted to try that
finally got the chance,
too bad the drumset was not available
so we played and played
laughed like mad
caused we were like NOOB can

after meeting up with shir and her bro
we went to play Wii again
this time round
4 person play together
we chose games tt can played up to 4 players
i cant believed it
we attracted many on-lookers
i bet they want to play also
HAHAHAHAHA
caused its really FUN

Oh Ya
forgot to mention
ah min contacted me when im at Cathay
im so reluctant to meet her can
cause i know she sure laughed at my car
but
end up
she sae she liked like car
SIAO
i liked her car more lor
i told her we exchanged for a day
HAHAHA
i know she wouldnt do so one lar

i realised my entry is fucking long
=x
no choice
i got too much to say
okay lar
enough is enough
im tired to type already.
im posting photos now
you guys see pictures bah
better right. (:

guitar hero

yin & brian (:

my bf (:

my buddy (:

Benz Bee & Ah Min

i can tell she loves my car

seriously i prefer this MORE

dead?

we ended up in CHANGI AIRPORT

tourist?

homeless man

homeless woman No 1

homeless woman No 2

we are tired

acting like some MAID =x

WHOO

Carl's Jr @ ECP

4am and we are eating so much

i dont know what is this lar

on the way to return the car

rou gu cha for lunch
(:

i love this weekend ♥

i love my bf ♥

i love my buddies ♥

i love fun ♥

失去已久的感觉

2009-04-02T18:23:00.006+08:00

What makes up a great night?

. . . . .

Music

FUN KAKIS : MY BUDDIES

Bacardi.Peach

Flaming Lamborghini

WaterFall

ScrewDriver

Midori Melon
________________________________

GREAT LADIES' NIGHT

________________________________

hahahaha

yesterday really enjoyed myself to the fullest

WHOO

more More MORE.

♥ BUDDIES♥

BEE

YIN

CHING

SEE. How much we love each other !

YIN & QING YU

WHOO

OOPS

RX & BEE

CHING & RX

Letter of offer - Signed Yesterday

Tender - 6th April

*Mixed Feeling*

OH well

20th april will be my last day @ Adidas

and

21st april will be my first day @ PFS

im going to miss many things when i start working
my time with my bf

my time with my buddies

my time with my family

my clubbing session

my late night out

my own spare time

and many many more

how

How

HOW

TELL ME HOW ANYONE?

sighs

see,

i haven start working

but im already start worrying

my working hours is so different from the rest

i gonna work on sat & sun or maybe P.holi too

my off is on a weekday

and i only have ONE OFF DAY

WA LAO EH

i dont want to say liao lar

wait i emo

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

enjoy my life now
ENJOY MYSELF TO THE FULLEST NOW

tomorrow

going

DRIVE !

WHEEEEEEEEEE

2009-03-31T23:55:00.002+08:00

我到底准备好了吗?

2009-03-25T19:04:00.002+08:00

pretty good deal SEH.

RIGHT?

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

im not sure whether i have make the right choice

and

im not sure whether i'll regret in future

but

something

i quite sure is

if i never try

i'll never know right?

2009-03-23T01:12:00.002+08:00

HELLO: My Future

and

Here comes goodbye;

i guess maybe its time to move on.

maybe i should look forward

and

stop being scare of this & that

my future is in my hand

im still not quite sure yet

but i think im quite determined this time round (i hope i am =x)

Impossible is NOTHING?

2009-03-22T01:00:00.003+08:00

Whats your goal in life?

Whats your dream?

this questions have been in my mind for the past few days
i have been thinking about it

but i still could not find an answer to my questions
):

2009-03-20T13:10:00.004+08:00

RESULT : Passed and completed the diploma course

GRADUATING GPA : 2.6054

what else can i say.

not the best result

but im relieved

i thought i could not make it this time

but still

GOOD-BYE NGEE ANN POLY.

im going to shit my life away from this very moment.

2009-03-19T23:07:00.009+08:00

女人啊女人

真是个难以捉摸的动物

总是爱胡思乱想，

不只这样

还小器。

哈哈哈哈

我在说我自己呀！

____________________

真烦。

____________________

生活真是枯燥乏味，

有时后我会想，

我到底活在这世界上，

到底有什么意义。

我对我的人生没什么目标，

也不知道该有什么期望。

作工也不是，

读书也不知读什么好。

真的很烦呀！

_____________________

最近我爱上了喝酒

可能因为不开心吧

总觉得喝到 HIGH 或烂醉

会让自己好过一点

昨天我可真的喝到 HIGH

四周围的东西都在转啊转

加上音乐和灯

可说是 HIGH 翻天。

_____________________

但

隔天睡醒后，

一切还是回到原点。

_____________________

告诉我

教教我

我该如何是好?

WHAT TO BLOG?

2009-03-10T00:51:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA

no doubt

THATS ME

actually

i got many things i wanna blog about

however

when i click into blogger

im stucked

i got no idea what should i blog about

maybe cause i got too much stuffs i wanna blog

well

i shall leave it for the next entry

(which i have no idea when will it be. LOL)

2009-02-25T23:39:00.002+08:00

as usual

i will only start studying super last minute

i just dont understand

why cant i quit this habit of mine.

its fucking irritating

im so worried now

im worried that i might repeat

and

i think im quite sure about it

thanks to my lousy attitude

and

my laziness

fuck it

2009-02-23T23:16:00.001+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Being Alone
Losing Someone
Commitment
Death
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-02-11T14:56:00.002+08:00

OFFICE WEAR IS SO NOT ME !
I DONT LIKE !

bought a raoul blouse this week,

specially for interviews and my presentation

i just dislike weaing office wear.

ITS SUPER SO NOT ME

i cant even wear my PINK EARPHONE

its damn out can.

im super duper disappointed

i think i screwed my interview just now

oh well

maybe the job is just not meant for me

i will be taking a year off from school

meanwhile i shall seriously think

WHAT I WANT IN LIFE

WHAT I WANT TO STUDY & WORK IN FUTURE

i think meanwhile

i shall look for some full-time related job and gain some experience

1st interview already screwed up

i shall continue searching

if not i might continue with my adidas part time job

and enjoy life for one year first

FAT HOPE I GUESS

shit

this is the last week already

i still got

3 ppts not done

2 presentations not over yet

1 report not done

3 tests not study yet

1 exam not clear

so fucking pack and im racing with TIME.

i going to do my ppt now and

study for my test tmr

BYE

I WANT TO TAKE PLANE & TOUR THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD

2009-02-02T23:54:00.003+08:00

soooooo borrrrinnnggg !

and damn moodless

cant bring myself to do anything

was browsing through pple's photos in facebook

wah

i want to go HOLIDAY TOOOOO
somewhere near will do

hongkong?

bintam?

batam?

malaysia?

HOLIDAY~

WELCOME TO OUR EVENT
(:

2009-02-02T01:36:00.004+08:00

there's so many things i wanna do

but i just cant find time to do it

1. Pack my roooom

2. Pack my roooom

3. Still packing my roooom

lol

my roooms is fucking messy

din pack fro cny

cause no one is visiting my house

sooo

hahahaha

who cares

i wanna use one wall for all my photographs

Do some Exercise

and last Dye my hair

AND VERY LAST

think about my future !

*Headache*

i guess i have to wait till i finished my exam

before i can squeeze time out

i sound as if im super duper BUSY

i am lar

im busy & tireddddd

school will be ending in 2weeks time

then follow by 2 weeks of study break + exam

last lap of my poly life

i guess i should put in my 101% of effort

there's some more works to be complete before school end
well

jiayou beeee

its coming to an end

time to decide what to do next

slack?

slack & slack?

LOL

im cluelesssss

better start surfing web site like http://www.jobsdb.com.sg/

hahahahahaha

I Love You
Brian Tian Zu' En

Mixed feeling

2009-01-26T02:04:00.015+08:00

HELLO
HAPPY NEW YEAR
i will be leaving Singapore for Genting
in like another 4 hours time

YAWNS
just finished packing my barang

Clothes - Checked

Mp3/Psp/Camera Charger - Checked
Foooooood - Checked
Sleeping Bag - Checked

still thinking did i miss out anything else.
i wanted to bring my FishEye Camera along
but i scare i might damage it
or history might repeated
SOOOO
i think i better not bring it.
although i know it will be fun taking photos with it
AHHH

):

im not excited at all
think of the long queue at the hotel
im like SIANNNNN
the long queue for the buffet breakfast
im SIANNNNN
everywhere is full of HUMANS
SIANNN LAR

will be back on wednesday night
and the following day i have to submit my FYP DRAFT REPORT
FUCK LAR
not 100% done yet
come back still need to rush
thursday need rush to print it out
there's ENM test on friday some more

what a new year
=x

sorry friend
i haven developed the photos we took on saturday
shall developed when im back okay (:

anyway
suddenly i got the urge to post my genting trip's photos 2 years ago

the group
(:

ROARS

We are trying to Break Dance

Brian and Bee
we haven get together yet. LOL

the girls

LAME

Joyce.Min Min.Yin.Bee.Dong

Ruo Xiang.Brian.Yin.Bee.Dong.Min Min.Joyce

Swing Us Away

Little Tea Pot

Haunted House

Death Pole - name given by Brian

TIME TO GO
(:

i will be back in 72hours

BYE BYE

2009-01-25T04:13:00.002+08:00

Its New Year Eve

but im not excited at all

in fact im not looking forward to it anymore

for the last whole week

im still so excited looking forward to it

but just now

just few hours ago

something happened

sighs

my urge for it is getting stronger each time;

my stress level is on the raise

CHECK OUT MY LOMOGRAPHIC FISHEYE CAMERA (:

2009-01-18T18:00:00.005+08:00

Check This Out

MY Lomographic Fisheye Camera

okay lar

i know you guys will said

why buy this

photoshop can do the effect what

FINE !

its just different okay

having the camer and making effect on the photos

ITS JUST DIFFERENT LAR

hahahahahaha

you dont know one lar

SWEEE

PS: Thanks dar for the camera (:
Im loving it

i wanna get Fujifilm Instax Mini Camer next
i have been eye-ing it for very long
but im still deciding whether to get it or not

YAWNS.
haven been blogging recently
too busy with school and work
im tireddddd

Exam and tests are coming real sooon
*headache*
&
*fear*
sighs

i think i better go finish up my tutorial
and
start on my projects
FUCKING SIAN LAR

_________________________

SATURDAY FEVER
Travel/Eat/Shop @ Vivo
Travel/Shop @ Chinatown
then
Travel/Eat Again @ Bugis

FAT FAT FAT
i have a goal tooo
i hope im able to fit into SIZE 36
which is SIZE S For Adidas Top

DREAM ON

Steamboat @ Bugis with Ah min

my boy

Ah min

WE LOVE STEAMBOAT
ESP BEEEEF !

BYE PEOPLE !

feeeeling super duper lost

2009-01-14T23:09:00.003+08:00

IM LOST

really damn lost this time

sighs

i totally got no idea what should i do

how

everyone is going for interview

everyone has their goals and aim

but what about me?

i got none

i dont know what to study

i dont know what line should i join

i dont know

I Dont Know

I DONT KNOW

my head is exploding

i dont want to think anymore

give me some peace please.

take me away

2009-01-09T10:49:00.002+08:00

讨厌

i hate everything im doing now

i hate skipping class to rush reports

i hate listening to excuses

just a few more weeks to go

2009-01-05T23:13:00.002+08:00

LOL

i know this looooks damn FUNNY

sorry

its not drawn by me

but chin koon (yin's friend)

CHECK OUT MY HOT PINK HEADPHONE.

hahahahahahahahaha

super random i know

but i just wanna blog something leh

YAWNS

time to get back to my projects

EVP PROPOSAL DOWN but not the actual event

sian

still got FYP, FSM, FMM and RMT projects to GO !

hang on beee !

its ending like another 7 to 8 more weeeks

WOO-LALA

Say HELLO to 2009 (:

2009-01-01T23:13:00.001+08:00

HELLO 2009

seriously time flies

OMFG

i have just turn 21 this year

thou my bday haven not pass yet

BUT

i say 21 because (2009 - 1988 = 21) okay?

sighs

im not sure whether 2009 will be a smooth year

seriously

i know i cant tell nor predict

but i guess

i can make a different in the life i want

provided i have enough self-discipline lar

6 more weeks to exam

and i will be graduating soon (hopefully i can?)

what should i do next?

continue to pursue a degree or

step out to the society and work?

SERIOUSLY

i have no idea at all !

so lost now

meanwhile

TIME TO DO PROJECTS

NO TIME ALREADY !!

fuck

i failed my FMM Test

i think my FSM Test oso CUI

god blesssss

retest on the fri when school start

jiayou

2008-12-28T01:55:00.011+08:00

swimming is a good way to de-stress i guess (:

im staying home on a SATURDAY
WTF right !!
was feeeling damn bored & unhappy
thus
i decided to pack my bag
and go for a swim

well
things turn out to be good
i think im enjoying myself
felt better after the swim
maybe lesss unhapppy?
haha

OMFG
tonsss of projects not done yet
haven even start
!(&U)@#)@#UIE)(@#U

im runnning out of time
school starting like 8 days later

and exam is like 6 weeks later after school start

im feeeeling so DEAD

POST CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION

@ CAROUSEL
26.12.2oo8
Friday

dar and me decided that we shall go Carousel

for our post christmas celebration

BUFFET BUFFET BUFFET
(:

hahahahahaha

Carousel was inside Royal Plaza

just beside Pacific Plaze & Opp. Far East Plaza

it was an international buffet

and their spread was WHOOOO

look and taste WONDERFUL

its damn DELICIOUS

just that its a little to expensive

check the photos (:

Japanese Food

Seafood

look how happy my dar is
LOL

make your own salad

why are you looking so serious?

turkey.beef.chicken.ham
name the meat you want and they will serve you

yum yum

choose your pasta

fruits

more more more

i think he find it so fun to make his own fondue

cakes and desserts
my favourite.

IM ON CLOUD NINE

US

wonderful night

thats my boy

checking his present
guess what izzist?
HAHAHA
a levis jeans for christmas !

i cant take my eyes off those desserts

sinful

i love you

dar
(:

PS :

HEY BOY
you still own me my christmas present for '08 hor

i shall keeeep pester you for life !

hahahahaha

more photos to be updated

STAY TUNE !

goodnight people

2008-12-23T23:24:00.002+08:00

THERE'S A BIG HOLE IN MY POCKET

no more cabbing

no more expensive food

no more clubbing

no more liquor

no more going out

i shall stay home & rot

2008-12-21T22:03:00.008+08:00

oh my fuck god
what a DAY for me
sleep slack sleep slack for the whole day
):

borrrrinnnnggg can
reached home around 5plus in the morning
DAMN
and im CRAVING FOR McDonald BREAKFAST
HOT CAKE, McMUFFIN, BIG BREAKFAST & HASHBROWNS !!
ROARS !

end up i cabbed home from St.James w/o eating my McDonald Breakfast
):

sleep all the way till 1plus
woke up
AND SLACK the whole day offff
hahahahahaha

PS:

peng you(s) i enjoyed sitting on the swing with you guys

HAHAHAHAHAH

damn funnnnnn can
(:
lets challenge again

DANZATION'08
2o.12.2oo8

a performance that we will never miss
i remembered the last one we watched was Danzation'06
and shir was performing 2 years ago
time flies
most of the people turned up for the performance
it was like a mini gathering can
after the performance
it was supper @ Timah
&
chill out session @ Liquid Kitchen
after Liquid Kitchen
some of us went down to St.James
=x

Shi Ling

Yin

Shir

Ching

Ah Min

Jason

Brian

Kee & Khoon

Hong Siong

Adi Pre-Christmas Gift Exhange
2o.12.2oo8

its was the first time
our RC team decided to exchange gift for christmas
im super duper excited can
hahahaha

sorry
i shall updated the photos after i recieved okay?
(:

Meanwhile
SEE THIS !

Adi-RC TEAM DRAWING
cooool right

RC TEAM
(:

YEAH
thats ME with my HOT PINK HEADPHONE
hahahah
(:

IM LOVING IT !

PARTY ANIMIALS;

2008-12-18T18:51:00.013+08:00

i like the idea of sleeping in the day
and party at night
its damn SHIOK i tell you
=x

alright
to be frank
i woke up around 5PM in the evening today
hahahahahahaah

LADIES NIGHT yesterday
FREE ENTRY.

FREE DRINKS.

whoooo

how can i resist the temptation right?

first stop : Zirca Mega Club

free flow of Lychee Martini from 930 to 12 midnight

second stop : Lunar

3 free Lychee Martini

third stop : St.James

we wanted to go Arena & Attica
But due to some reasons
we skipped those places and headed down to st.james instead

its fucking packed at PowerHouse

and im feeling super no mood to squeeze with the people there

music wasnt nice too

around 3plus
everyone was already feeling damn bored
so we decided to head down to SPIES for PRATA (:

eat.slack.chill
&

back

HOME
im suppppper duppppppper tired can

@ Zirca

THREESOME (:

Shiling & Yin

idiot three

@ Lunar with ah min

ah min trying to lick shiling?

this photo looks damn WRONG

i think DENG XIAO PING has smelly arm pits

we hearts YIN

shiling

yin

bee

on the way to St.James

shiling was super drunk

i love this photo

the group

@ Spies

WE LOVE FOOOOD

Nintendo Wii; DAMN ADDICTIVE (:

2008-12-15T23:53:00.006+08:00

currently im super addicted to Nintendo Wii
itssss so FUN can !

alright

i know im slow can

Wii was out like soo long already.

Played Boxing, Baseball, Bowling & Tennis
wah
it was like really playing the actual sports
hahahahahahahaha

after playing
my arms ache like fuck can
=x

Nintendo Wii

IM IN LOVE WITH WII

im the WINNER for the bowling game

dar WON in the boxing game
EEYER =x

US (:

2 idiots

LOVES

2008-12-13T03:11:00.004+08:00

3.11AM

AHHHHH

TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO !

WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO NOW !!

im feeling super duper fucking lost now
answer me
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON
WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING TO ME !

sighs

im just like a lil girl losing my way home
can anyone take my hand
and
bring me home?

如果和早知道

2008-12-11T17:34:00.003+08:00

如果和早知道

人们总是在犯了错之后，

为了让自己觉得好过一点

什么烂借口都能想的出。

我想最常听到的借口应该是
“如果我知道结果会是这样，

我一定不会 BLAH BLAH BLAH”

不然就是

“早知道会是这样，我也不会 BLAH BLAH BLAH”

如果和早知道的话

世界就不会这么乱了

人类个个都发达了

其实我自己也不例外

每当我考试考不好时

我都会为自己找一大堆理由

我都会说如果我有多一点时间的话，

我一定会努力好好的读

但其实我已经有足够的时间去准备

只是我没好好的利用。

不然就是

早知道考试题目那么简单

我就好好的准备。

说这么多有什么用

事情发生了

在这么多的理由或借口也不能挽救。

这一切能怪谁呢?

只能怪我自己

是我活该。

60 marks paper
i think

i can get only less than 20 marks
HAHAHAHAHAHA

well done RIGHT !

FUCK

2008-12-10T01:01:00.004+08:00

at first i thought im fine

but i know im not

and shiling said it was emptiness

the feeling of emptiness within me

a feeling that words cant explain

and

im badly affected by this
i cant concentrate at all
i cant study
im moooodlessssss

stop & stare

i fucking hate people who procrastinate
thats why i hate myself
i always say tomorrow and tomorrow will never come
oh
FUCK PEOPLE WHO PROCRASTINATE
im such a LOSER

)#*(!&$&$*#(!_#&)@

2008-12-09T01:26:00.006+08:00

A nonchalant person is not likely to become warm or heated about anything, a fact that is underscored by the etymology of the word nonchalant.

im bored.

tell me what should i do.
im super duper moodlessss now.

i want to get a tattoo NOW
i want to drive around Singapore all by myself NOW
i want to get drunk & laugh like an idiot NOW
i want to tear & burn my FMM Notes NOW
i want to SCREAM OUT LOUD NOW
there's so many things that i want to do NOW

YES
I SAY NOW !!!!!

sighs !

R.A.N.D.O.M.N.E.S.S

Hello Sunday.
7 December 2008

FINALLY
after saying for so many weeks
i finally went Bukit Timah Reserve with my family
walked all the way from the entrance of the reserve to the summit
seriously i can feel a sense of satisfaction when i reached the summit
i was like WHOOOOOOOOOOO
WELL DONE BEE (:
hahahahaha
the road was damn steep
going up was really a torture man
&
going down was a another challenge faced
caused the road was way to steep
but
whatever it is
ITS DAMN FUN

im going again next sunday
anyone wanna join me and my family
you will definitely feel proud of yourselve at the end of the trip.

Its SATURDAY FEVER.
8 December 2008

GUAN YIN TEMPLE @ SI BEI LOR (Bugis)
yupp
this was where me, shiling & yin visited on saturday
we planned this visit about one week ago if i never remb wrongly
yin suggested to go to the temple to pray for our comming Common Test
however
once i reached there,
i totally forgotten my purpose was to pray for my studies
i went to pray for other thing instead

E.N.D

2008-12-04T19:32:00.004+08:00

2 DOWN; 3 MORE TO GO

Retail Management down;
Fire Safety Management down;

Healthcare & Business Park Facilities - tomorrow
Facilities Maintenance Management - next thursday
Event Management - next friday

wasnt feeling very happy about my paper today
i guessed i will fail the paper for sure.
hopefully there will be a re-test please.

i think i should slap myself right hard
last minute study = CMI
sighs

OKAY. no use crying over spilled milk now
time to study for my paper tomorrow

i SERIOUSLY have no fucking mood to study at all
im already in HOLIDAY MOOOOOOOOOD
party.Party.PARTY

):
this is bad

anyway
i feel that i will do damn badly for this sem
hopefully i can clear everything & LEAVE NGEE ANN next feb
why do i say so; CAUSE

projects = CMI
tests = CMI
tutorials = CMI
basically i feel that this sem is CMI toooo
no point i try to work hard myself you see,
i dont wanna say anymore.

threesome lets pray together this sat okay
):

pray that my lecturer will mark wrongly

hahahahahahaha

okay
there's tooo much to update for the past one weeek

sorrrrry people
i'll update soooooon

LAST
SAY HELLLLLO TO MY "ONE WEEK-YEARS OLD" P PLATE
(:
hahahahahahahahaha
actually
i haven buy my P PLATE YET.

BYE

2008-11-27T01:23:00.002+08:00

IM FEELING SUPER NERVOUS NOW

*Praying*

2008-11-20T02:23:00.002+08:00

FOUL MOOD;

im in a super bad bad bad bad mooooood for the entire day

tired
angry
impatient

vulgur

tired - i can fall asleep anytime at anywhere.

angry - my whole face is painted in red.

impatient - i dont have time to wait for you.
vulgur - i can scold "FUCK" in every sentence i speak

im speechless

2008-11-19T03:38:00.005+08:00

OK.
IM Tired
IM Sleepy
IM Feeling Super Restlessssssss
BUT
I CANT SLEEP

sighs ):
i still got tons of work not done
2 presentations later
both not done
POWER LAR !

i decided to blog to give myself a break
"HAVE A BREAK; HAVE A KIT KAT"

SITE VISIT : WEST COAST PLAZA
TIME : 2PM
DATE : 18.11.2oo8

eh
where's are the photos i took?
weird
i couldnt find some
like the exterior the building.
HMMMM
something is wrong.

i can only find these photos
HAHA
wondering what are all these?
actually
all these are some display the management use to fill up the empty retail space in the mall
i find it quite interesting

seriously;

IM IN LOVE WITH THIS MIRROR
its soooooo damn COOOOOL

the girls

Ministry.Of. Food

i have to get back to my work already
time check : 4.11AM

gosh
my heart is beating faster and faster
LAST
my stomach is still not feeling very goooooood
my diarrhoea goes on & On & ON....

fuck.
&
bye.

2008-11-18T00:02:00.003+08:00

The "Buddha Bar" music series is a compilation of lounge and chill out music

seriously,

i think you guys should listen to it

its really nice (:

please. the music is not make up of people chanting all the way

im feeling super terrible for the past few days

was suffering from an intestinal disorder characterized by abnormal frequency and fluidity of fecal evacuations.

in short means diarrhoea

LOL

doctor said im suffering from intestine infection

whatever lar

i only know i paid 96bucks to him

when he only like see me for less than 5 minutes?

and speak less than 50 words to me?

KNS

after so many days

i did not feel that im getting better at all

THATS BAD !

actually im feeling a lil scare to go for further check up also

what if im suffering from some terminal illness?

life is too unpredictable

im scare.

this week gonna be a CRAZY week for me

gonna rush projectS like a SIAO CHAR BO !

Tuesday - FYP Due

Wednesday - EVP Case Studies Due
- ENM Report & Presentation Due
Thursday - HBF Report & Tutorial Qn Due

Friday - RMT Report & Blog Assignment Due

so sleeeeeeepy can

plus my stomach is giving me so much trouble

AHHHHHHHHH

fuck

SATURDAY please come fast !

i can seeeee St. James is WAVING AT ME

at least this makes me smile !

hahahahahaha

time check, its 1.11AM NOW

i gonna start on my FYP

lesson at 9am later

i cannot miss anymore

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE !
GOODNIGHT MY BUDDIES/PENG YOUs
GOODNIGHT DAR !

MONEY MONEY MONEY !

2008-11-14T00:31:00.005+08:00

怎么了
说好的幸福呢?
我懂了,不说了
爱淡了,梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着

2008-11-12T08:14:00.001+08:00

FUCK

Projects are killing me.
im running out of time
can someone tell me what should i do

party is over; back to normal

2008-11-10T00:51:00.010+08:00

Party is Over !

and im feeling damn sian now

head down to St.James on saturday to celebrate qy & rx's 21st bday

well.

i guess clubbing has become a weekly activity for me & my buddies

*its too addictive & irresistible

and kind of waste money too? LOL

shall think where to go next week. =x

meet up with shiling & yin before heading down to St.James

went down to Novena to get present for the 2 bday boys

sometime i do wonder how strangers on the road think of us

i guess they feel that we are acting like some primary school kids

well. i dont deny it lar

sometime we can be super noisy and our behaviour can be damn lame & silly

but thats us

ching & kel were waiting for us at Vivo,

after meeting up with them

we headed down to St.James
im glad we were under the guest list,

and we dont have to queue to enter the club. haha

im lazy to type anymore.

my eyes are closing sooon

IM SUPPOSE TO DO MY FYP.

AHHHH

but i guess im really tired.

count to 3 and i can fall asleep immediately.

im serious.

let the photos do the saying instead

THREESOME (:

THREESOME AGAIN.
hahahahahaha

Buddies
ling, yin, bee & ching

@ Power House

What expression is this arh?

bee, ruo xiang & qingyu

loves !

@ Boiler

i just love this photo.

Yeah !

the birthday boys

US

LAST PHOTO OF THE DAY.
anyway thats my TONGUE (:

YEAH
my dar is BACKKKKKK from taiwan
(:

alright.
time to sleep
hahahahahahahah.
working at 1030 later

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE
fuck off projects.

2008-08-31T21:58:00.002+08:00

MAINTENANCE-IN-PROGRESS !

LOL

sorrrryyyyyyy
im damn fucking busy nowadays
everyday attachment Attachment & ATTACHMENT

i feel damn fucking depress can
everyday 9am at KAKI BUKIT
dont ask me where is kaki bukit.
go yahoo search kaki bukit & you will know where
is a fucking good location at the EAST !
):

should knock off at 6pm
but haiya
attachment students are meant to do "SAI KANG"
so obviously
i dont knock off at 6pm
I#!&$)&$*(#$
now is just the first week only
imagine 6 more weeks to go
i heard that the students over there went home at 2AM BEFORE !
fuck you lar
ask me go back at 2AM
i might as well dont go home !

i seriously think that im not a office person can
gonna wake up so early is a torture for me
):
worse is i gonna work on sat
which means; i cannot PARTY ON FRIDAY

GOODBYE NIGHTLIFE & FUCK OFF ATTACHMENT
im feeling so damn sleepy now
tmr 9am at KAKI BUKIT AGAIN !

sighs !

sorry for not blogging

2008-08-02T23:55:00.001+08:00

Sorry for not blogging.

blog is undergoing maintenance ):
will be up sooon

is this me?

2008-07-13T23:30:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

self-discipline; the key factor

2008-07-02T23:44:00.007+08:00

just few more weeks more to go
i keep reminding myself i only left few more weeks more
i just have to give my best for this few weeks and im done for this sem
YES
what i have to do first is to change my mindset
i dont deny im a lazy person
i sleep like 2 3 am in the morning
and whenever i need to wake up for class in the morning
i will give myself all sort of excuses to skip class
and this is bad
it has become a bad habit of mine

i always skipped class
and this really affected me

another bad habit is i always cab to school
i cant resist the temptation at all
is a WASTE OF MONEY can
fuck

like today i skipped tutorial class
i skipped last week as well
but i still did my tutorial at home
but what happened today was
i slept and i forgot to do my tutorial
when i woke up
the tutorial quiz was over
im given zero marks
whole day im feeling damn moody
im tt kind always feel that its okay one lar, later then do also can
therefore i feel that i can do my tutorial later
end up my lecturer closed the quiz
i cannot blame anyone
but myself

i thought for the whole day
since i only left few more weeks
why not i just give my best shot
therefore
im going to attend all the class from next week onward
im serious
im trying hard !
im trying to plan my time well as well
time management !! (:

suddenly i felt so motivated
hopefully
i do what i said
no more warning letter please (:

bye !

am i so insignificant

2008-06-24T23:32:00.008+08:00

am i so insignificant?
am i?
Am i?
AM i?

i hate this feeling.

get lost lar
everything is getting on my nerve
people;
projects;
time management;

but
im glad
cause this gonna be over soon

fuck;
im feeling super shag
my head is aching like fuck
im yawning non-stop
tears keep rolling down from my eyes

i can sleep ANYWHERE
see what i type
yes. ANYWHERE !

when i take bus to school
i sleep on the bus

when i take bus or train to work
i sleep either on the bus or in the train (while standing in the train)

when i take bus home after my work
i sleep my way home

inside the lift
i would close my eyes and rest even though the whole ride is less than a minute
i would take all the chance i can to rest

im lacking of sleep
everyday i look so dead
in school or at my workplace
i look equally DEAD.

im glad i skipped IS today
and done up quite a bit of my FYP
MR.ASS is pleased with our report
(:
he even joke with us today
but i dont find it funny at all lar
he said "KEEP FOCUS !"
alright
i shall keep focus
i guess im addicted to those security books i borrowed from the library
i find it pretty interesting to read
alright
shall stop blogging
time for PROJECT(S)
BYE !

im fucking serious

i hate last minute work

it causes my stress level to RAISE !!

NA BEI CHEE BYE !
FUCK OFF

bee dont want to start school

2008-06-23T22:42:00.003+08:00

i cant believe it

SCHOOL REOPEN LE !
oh
knn.fuck off lar

2 weeks just passed likedat
i din nothing at all
seriously
just work & work for the 2 whole week

i did mention said i hate tues right
AND YES
im feeling so dead now
few more hours to 12am
and it will be TUESDAY
fuck
fyp report not done at all
i really dont know how man
OH PLEASE
the question now is not how how how
but think what should i do for my fyp now
maybe i should start putting in effort
double effort is needed now
time is running out
4 more weeks to the dateline for my fyp draft submittion
):
my stress level is RAISING LIKE DONT KNOW WHAT
sighs

so many dateline coming up
i guess is no longer dateline
but DEAD-LINE !

What the fuck are projects man?!?
Get a life !!

2008-06-19T23:13:00.003+08:00

oh fuck.

I AM NOT HAPPY !
i cant describe the feeling inside me
alone?
lost?
stress?
emo?
i totally have no idea at all

school is starting soon
whenever i think of it
i feel so fed up
i think my FYP gonna be a FAIL GRADE
this is adding to my stress level

sometime i just wonder
how long more can i endure?
i hate tuesday
i hate going blk 34/ level 5-15
i hate talking to MR.ASS (my nick for him)
i hate thinking to how to entertain MR.ASS
how can i cope with MR.ASS's FUCKING ATTITUDE
i just hate him !
FUCKING CHEE BYE LAR !

went school today for tourism project
reached around 930am
do awhile then went for lunch
then off to work
suppose to be off today
but my mummy eileen (my in-charge if you guys do not knw) is working today
so i change my off day to tmr instead
was feeling kinda upset
more to disappointment i guessed
dar supposed to book out today
and of cause im so disappointed because
he could not book out today
):

reached my workplace around 3.15pm
not in the mood of doing anything
end up
i decided to pack my store-room instead
anyway
thats my intention also
i change my off day to tmr cause i wanna pack store-room with mummy
so packed/arranged the whole day

an unexpected guest came to invite me at work today
(:
its was my cousin, carolyn
she even bought me muffin
seriously
im feeling quite touched & happy
is like at least someone still remember you & care for you

she make my day man (:

anyway i have this real bad habit
whenever im feeling stress/upset/unhappy
i will start biting my nails
fuck lar
my nails could not grow at all
cause i dont even give them chance to grow
i will bite bite bite NON-STOP !

TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, VEG-TABLE !!

when you look me in the eyes;
i know i have fall for you
you gave me a pocketful of sunshine
& i promise you will always be my baby
(:

dont be surprise
hahaha
all these are the songs that im currently addicted to

LOL

shall go sleep sooon
im tired
gonna reach school at 9 tmr for project
fuck
i have not bathe yet
=x

im sorry

2008-06-18T23:53:00.002+08:00

i did smth wrong in the morning

i was sleeping
& my mum came into my room
she asked me to help her passed smth to my aunty before i go work
alright
i already promised her the night before i will do that
but before she went out to work in the morning today
she came in to my room
and keep repeating the task she asked me to do
i felt so irritating that she kept repeating it
so i answered her back with my eyes closed (half awake)

ME : if you so scare i forget, you go give aunty the thing yourself lar !!!
MUMMY : (in an angry tone) WHAT ARE YOU SAYING !
ME : i said, if you are so scare i never pass to her, you passed to her yourself lar !!
MUMMY : (SUPER ANGRY TONE) IF I GOT TIME, I DONT NEED YOU TO HELP ME
MUMMY : YOU THINK YOU LIKEDAT SAID CORRECT A NOT !!
ME : (keep quiet and continue to lie on my bed with my eyes closed =x )

and she stomped out of my room
after she went out
i felt so AHHHHH
i know i shouldnt said that to her
but i felt so irritated when she kept repeating when im sleeping
=x

felt quite pissed with myself now
when i got home just now
i felt weird
mummy was talking on the phone
so i din even greet her
and i went into my room
i guessed mummy felt disappointed with me
fuck
but i dont knw what should i do to make the situation better

AHHHHH
this shit
make my whole mood so sucky now
#I!&$#)@#&$@#)$*@)*$

Monday Blues

2008-06-16T23:32:00.004+08:00

OH MY
monday blues can
work is freaking boring
ahhhh
and im feeling super duper tired
im lacking of sleep

friday.
bad day
oh fuck
cause i failed again
after that
meet dar for dinner at Vivo
then head down to Rc to meet adidas crews
went zouk with adidas crews
reached home ard 4am

saturday.
woke up around 10 plus in the morning
then slacked my afternoon off
then went out to accompany shir to get some adidas tops at Cathay
then Father's Day Dinner @ Gombak
after that
went to catch Kung Fu Panda at West Mall
(:

sunday.
busy day
jun ming cousin's BIG DAY
he is getting married
hahahah
slept around 4am in the morning
woke up at 6am to prepare to fetch the bride
everything end around 12plus
head down to Lot One with my family for coffee
met dar to shop around before i head home to prepare for the wedding dinner
reached home rest awhile
then prepared for the dinner
took lots of photos with my cousin(S)
hahahahah
everyone seems to change
i guess is because i haven see them for a long time

alright
photos will be post up ASAP
sorry
caused i haven zip the photos
and
basically
im lazy lar
=x

Kungfu Panda (:

2008-06-14T23:56:00.004+08:00

hahahahah
watched Kung Fu Panda with dar/shir/victor
OMG
lucky i watched it
damn fucking funny can
im in love with this panda
anyone wanna buy me Kung Fu Panda's Soft Toy (:

one, two, three !

2008-06-13T15:12:00.002+08:00

fucked up lar

how many time must i re-take?
i hope this will be my last time re-taking !

PASS PLEASE !
):

his mistakes;

2008-06-12T23:19:00.004+08:00

currently im addicted to this song:
His Mistakes (:

AWWW
is damn emo the song
check out the lyrics
(:

Usher - His Mistakes lyrics

2008-06-08T02:14:00.001+08:00

im feeling damn upset now
the feeling is beyond words

im not happy at all
):

BEE; you sucks !

2008-06-05T11:38:00.004+08:00

ALL down; its holiday !!

well well well
2 weeks holiday?
i doubt its wont be a fun/relaxing holiday for me
BECAUSE
i will be working on weekdays
and im left with my weekend there
struggling with my FYP
and other stupid projects which will due when school starts

SAM paper down
im kind of disappointed with myself
i studied for my paper
i memorized the points
YES I DID
but guessed what
i could not remembered a lot of point when i tried to answer
wtf wtf wtf wtf !
WTF !!
im like WHAT THE FUCK !?!
i dint finished my paper in time as well
wheee
a pass or a fail?
i cant decided anymore
its my lecturer's decision
):

dar has gone out for field camp
will only be back on saturday morning
sighs !
supposed to go out with my classmates after paper
but there's a change of plan
so i will go out with my small fish aunty & my lil cousin later instead
need to get clothing for my cousin's wedding
oh well
SAD.
SADED.

boring life/
boring day/
boring mood.
bye boring me !

i hate to look into the mirror
cause i look like a PIG
i hate to try clothing
cause i cant fit into those clothing
and the feeling SUCKS
@!U#)@!)(
i hate myself
cause i cant stop eating
i hate myself
cause i cant control my own emotions
i hate myself
cause i cant make myself happy
i hate myself
cause i dont have confidence at all
i hate i hate i hate
i really HATE MYSELF

im speechless, are you?

2008-06-04T18:53:00.003+08:00

im speechless

im tired of life

weird?

for a 20 years old girl to say such things?

i have no idea why am i having such thoughts

but im really sick & tired of life

esp MY LIFE !

sighs !

am i missing a lot in my life?

am i happy with my life?

am i doing enough?

am i achieving what i want?

nothing interests me at this point

im feeeling super duper sian now

dont even feel like studying for my paper tmr

have been slacking the whole day off

fuck

what am i doing?

ps: sorry for everything

but sometimes

i really feel so U@!&#&!@&#!&

its my problem

its ME

i totally have no idea what i want at all.

fats, Fats, FATS

2008-06-03T23:15:00.008+08:00

2 down; 1 last one to GO

cleared BMD paper today

hmmm

i wrote a lot

but dont know izzist related not

hahahaha

well anyway

its over

dont think about it anymore

shit

i should be preparing for my SAM paper on thurs

but im so not in the mood sia

THREADLESS TEE ON SALES NOW !
ADIDAS WATCHES ON SALES NOW TOO !

interested in threadless tee;

just check it out @ www.threadless.com

im finding people to share the shipping cost (:

whereas, interested in adidas watches

PM me in msn/email me (:

met shir for lunch at LOT ONE today

walked around

omg
LOT ONE is undergoing lots of changing

becoming better and better

there is NEW YORK NEW YORK some more

not bad SEH !

the best part is

there is COTTON ON !

hahaha

& shir/ching/kelvin are all working in Cotton On

liew

tried some tops & buttoms

FUCKING DEPRESSING

i put on WEIGHT lar

thou i never weight for a very long time

but i can feel it

i cant fit into so many tops & buttons

jialat lar

end up

i only bought one jeans/jacket/shorts

all for my work

SIGHS

TIME TO LOSE SOME FATS

its damn depressing

when you realised

you cant fit into nice clothing

ROARS !

i shall EAT LESS

time for some random photos

are you guys ready?

hahahahaha

let's GOooooooooo.

.stupid note.

cookie from Naz (:

dar & me

Yum Yum

star-shape pan cake by ME (:

farewell present from Hans
):

dumb

Hello; speaking?

Our Queen

2 in 1?

hoodie siao

what a face

hmmm

Adidias's Model

Jump Jump

odd one out

Let's JUMP

children & mummy

(:

BYE

Noise = Fart

2008-06-02T17:37:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHA
i know its super random lar

okay
whenever i want to fart in front of my dar
i will MAKE LOTS LOTS LOTS OF NOISE
reason very simple
so i can cover the fart sound
=x
WAHAHAHAHAH
random !

YAWNS

one down; two more to go
first Common Test paper today
hmm
i hope i wont fail
actually
to achieve a A grade it not difficult at all
cause basically the lecturer has already told us
all the qn are from Tutorial Qn
and when i saw the paper today
it was really all the Tutorial Qn
but
hahahahaha
i dint memorize hard enough
so when i wrote my answer
some points lacking here and there
i think not some of the point
is A LOT OF POINTS LEH !
siao liao
=x

BMD paper tmr
God Blesssss
hahahahaha
shall go start mugging now
TIME IS RUNNING OUT !
but
im feeeling so duper restlesssss lar !!

ROARS
U#)(@$)(@#*$)*$)(@

been feeling weird this past few days
bad-temper/emo/stress/mix feeling blah blah blah
basically NOTHING GOOD AT ALL !
alright

time to MUG
bye people

2008-05-29T23:19:00.005+08:00

OPPS !!!!

sorry for not updating

was busying working in adidas
SALES PERIOD NOW
its MADNESS !!!

school was tiring

same question being asked everyday

hello; please

im tired answering the same old question

stop asking me lar

anyway
FYP = HELL

kena scolded on tues

it was TOTALLY HELL

you made me felt so LOUSY can
& im feeling super duper demoralised

i felt so SHITTY at that point you know?

i wont aruged with you

caused

i see NO POINT TO ARUGE

caused you dont even give us chance to explain
i know im at fault too
should have put in more effort

but sometime
dont you think you have problem tooo?

i doubt you know it

the way you respond to us

the way you guide us

& the way you call our names

WHAT THE FUCK?!?

are we your DOG or WHAT

PLEASE LAR

show some RESPECT !!

we are not

YOUR SLAVE OR DOG !!!!

using middle to point at our work?

using an unpatience tone to talk to us?

urine smell coming out from your mouth

called us by our FULL NAME?

if you are in our shoes

HOW DO YOU FEEL?

gosh

i hoped i can get over with this shit sooon

i have been showing

GREAT ENDURANCE TOWARDS YOU !

FUCK OFF; FUCKER !

sometime,

somehow,

some ChEE-ByE people will just enter our life

but i strongly believe

one day
i will completely get you OUT OF MY LIFE !!!

DAMN

im supposed to blog around some happy stuffs

end up
ROARS !!

THIS SHOWS HOW BADLY IM AFFECTED BY THIS MATTER

I WANT TO SLEEP !

2008-05-22T03:23:00.002+08:00

I WANT TO SLEEP;

MY BRAIN IS TELLING ME TO SLEEP
SHUT DOWN MY LAPTOP
& SLEEP LAR BEE

YAWNS !
MY EYES ARE WET
TEARS ARE FLOWING DOWN MY CHEEK
IM SCREAMING :
"BUAY TA HAN LIAO"

LOOK AT THE TIME NOW
is 3.30AM IN THE MORNING !!
AHHH FUCK LAR.
i only left few hours to sleep only
AHHHHHHHH

YAWNS
feeling super sleepy now
just finished doing my hospitality management ppt
presentation later
dont want to comment much
shall go sleep NOW
hmmm
fuck
i haven even bath
=x

finished work around 10pm
reached home at 11.30pm
wah
started to chiong my project till now
dont even have time to bath & eat my dinner
heck lar
i want to sleep already

goodnight people,
im dirty SO WHAT
sleep is more important
(:

im sorry;
but seriously you are getting on my nerves.

i love public holiday. hahahahahaha

2008-05-19T16:01:00.010+08:00

I LOVE PUBLIC HOLIDAY.
esp TODAY.
hahahahahahahaha
normally for public holiday right
i wont be able to spend time with my family or my dar
because i got to work

but this time is different
i requested not to work today
at first my plan is to accompany dar
end up he couldnt book out
but there's always something better
hahahahahaha
end up
i accompany my mummy & small fish family out for SHOPPING
fun fun fun !
but my legs hurts like fuck
and the weather outside is
SUPER DUPER FUCKING HOT !
im perspiring non-stop can

went over to CHINATOWN for breakfast
then we shopped around inside
OLD GRANNY SHOPPING MALL.
in short will be OG =x
hahahaha
i cant remb who told me this lar
but okay lar
the clothing inside wasnt that OLD
all of us went crazy
we buy like as if everything is FREEEE.
mummy & small fish spent like dont know what
buy buy buy !
BUAY TA HAN.

i went around searching for dress for my cousin's wedding
found smth i like
but
I LOOK LIKE "BA ZHANG"
which means RICE DUMPLING !
SAD LAR !!
maybe its time for me to LOSE SOME WEIGHT?
hahahahah
god is hinting me already
DONT LOSE WEIGHT = NO NICE CLOTHING !!!

shopped for the whole entire afternoon
thirsty/tired/feeling hot
we decided to buy some snacks
then headed back to ah ma house
bought shoes for baby yong an
(i got a new nickname for him; LEONG GAN)
he is super duper CUTE lar !!

after that
i carried all our barang
& HEADED HOME !
im feeling super shag can
slept at 5am ytd
and mummy came into my room
at 930am in the morning and wake me up
im supposed to go to WEST MALL to take photos for my SAM PROJECT
welll, maybe i will go tmr after my 8am lesson
or maybe i should go later
due date is next monday (26/05/08)
i got this bad feeling that i will chiong like fuck again
LAST MINUTE WORK AGAIN MAH !

fuck.
im feeling so pissed with this project
rest awhile
& im off to do my FYP REPORT
gonna show my mentor tmr

CBKNNFUCK...#&!&$@#&

he is super duper cute right?

malay prince

im in love with him
(:

my lil baby cousin

18.o5.2oo8
SUNDAY !

Lunch at New Majectic Hotel
&
Girl's Gathering at Fish & Co
(:
WHEEEE

woke up around 11 in the morning
prepared and headed down to New Majestic Hotel with mummy
meeting daddy and the rest fo my gu gu(s) over there
WOOHOOO
i love the hotel
i dont mind spending a night there one day
hahahahaha
anyone wanna sponser me? (:

my 2nd time trying foie gras (goose liver)
hahahahaha
actually i dont really like it lar
taste a bit raw

New Majestic Hotel

FOOOOOOOOD !!

LOVES (:

after that i stayed at the lobby of the hotel
waiting for my group mates to come
we decided to work on this hotel for our project
stayed till 3plus going 4
then headed back home

meeting my buddies at 730pm at IMM
super excited
the girls decided to have dinner at Fish & Co
hahahaha
i guessed we filled the whole place
with our LOUD VOICE/LAUGHER and CRAPS
it have been years that we meet up like this
really enjoyed myself to the MAX

after that we went walking around
then we took bus back home together
(:

Fancy Delight

nice tarts from IMM

shir & yin

FOOOOOD !

BUDDIES (:

the waiter insist us to say "FISH" when we took this pic

ROARS !!

NO MORE !

♥ love my buddies ♥

7 years of friendship & still counting on..

YAWNS; boring weedend

2008-05-17T23:00:00.005+08:00

im currently addicted to this song

《虽然我愿意》- 伍家辉

请让我靠近你轻轻对你
说别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
(心还想着你)

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

(:
super duper nice song can

_____________________________

dint go band today
went school for project
YAWNS !
a SATURDAY IN SCHOOL?
can you imagine
how sad can it be !
hahahahaha
):

after that met hong soon at SUNTEC
caused he wanna get some adidas running top/short
SALES EVERYWHERE
im tempted to buy thing lar
so...
end up..
i bought one bag from NOVO lar
12 bucks
=x
WAHAHAHAHAHAH
NOVO IS GOOD !
cause they have my shoe size
& most importantly
ITS CHEAP LAR !
sales up to 70% leh.
POWER !

anyway.
planned to go shopping with dar next sat
hopefully by sat i can clear my projects
& i started mugging for my COMMON TESTsssss
CHIONG AHHHHH!!

next week working 4 days straight
OMFG
=x

WHAT A BORING SATURDAY NIGHT !
tv/eat/slack/
its okay
tmr will be a better day
CAUSE...
im going to THE NEW MAJECTIC HOTEL for lunch
YUM YUM
then might stay there for project
COOL RIGHT !
i love that hotel
it will be my second visit there tmr
(:
and
IM MEETING MY BUDDIES AT NIGHT.
WHOOOOO
GIRL'S GATHERING + DINNER
cant wait to seeee them lar !

alright
im going to lie on my bed and watch tv
and
SLACK MY WHOLE NIGHT OFF !

BYE !

他和她的故事

2008-05-16T23:46:00.016+08:00

他和她的故事

十四岁的她，
在一次偶然下认识了他。
从普通朋友，
变成了好朋友。
女生和男生的关系
就好像兄弟一样好。
相触的日子久了，
彼此都很了解对方。
很多人都误认他们是情侣，
但他们彼此都知道，
他们只把对方视为很重要的好朋友。
女生和男生心里都有喜欢的人，
但彼此在感情上，
都遇到很多挫折。
所以女生一直认为，
只有朋友才能陪她走到最后。
而且女生也坚决认为，
男生和女生可以做一辈子的好朋友。

女生一直依赖着男生，
因为她知道男生很了解他，
也知道如果一天男生不再的话，
她会觉得好像少了些什么一样。
但这一切是因为女生太习惯有男生在她的身边，
男生其实也一样。
这样的好朋友关系维持了五六年。

直到在一次旅行中，
男生不知为何就对女生产生了感情。
男生没说什么，
但他的行为让女生感觉到他的心意。
一开始，
女生无法相信也不敢相信，
因为他认为男生不应该会爱上她。
因为他们说好要当一辈子的好朋友。

女生坚决她的信念，
她告诉男生她的决定，
她希望他们能当一辈子的好朋友，
她不希望这件事会影响到他们之间的关系。
男生答应了，
但故事没有这样就结束。

男生和女生还是好朋友，
他们照样跟一大班的朋友出去。
就在这一天，
当聚会结束后，
女生和男生达同一辆的计程车回家，
男生建议去吃宵夜，
所以女生就陪男生去了。
宵夜之后，
男生建议步行送女生回家，
女生答应了。
在回家途中，
男生突然拉起女生的手，
这时女生感到非常差异，
她不知该说些什么。
男生把女生送到家门外，
他鼓起勇气向女生说出心里一直想说的话。
这时女生也清楚自己的感情，
她知道彼此都是喜欢着对方，
只是彼此都没发觉。
男生和女生聊了一晚，
彼此都清楚自己要的是什么。

我们就这样在一起了，
时间过的好快，
相识到相恋到相爱，
我们都不知走过了多少的风风雨雨。
时间能让我们根加的珍惜对方，
虽然有时我们会为一些小事而吵架，
但到头来，
我们都知道是因为太在乎对方才会这样。

我只想说，
我把你看的比任何事都来的重要。
我爱你

Happy MAMA's Day (:

2008-05-11T01:47:00.012+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER's DAY

ps: I LOVE YOU MUMMY !

thanks for your love & concern towards me
you are the best mummy

just came back from supper
treated three mummy(s) a meal

mother's day celebration

brought them to this hong kong cafe at jurong point

a 24hours cafe : XIN CHAR CHAN TENG
overall the food over there was nice

the 3 mummy(s)
my mummy, auntie small fish & ah fong aunty

im super duper tired can
have band practice in the afternoon
then headed down to the zi char store to help
stayed all the way till closing
YAWNS !

tmr will be worse
mother's celebration
the zi char store will be floodiing with PEOPLE !!
shall go sleep now
long day tmr again !!

___________________________

o9.o5.2oo8
Friday

no school today

went driving in the morning

actually i hate driving in the morning

esp 8am

cause there will be super duper many cars

but heng

friday's lesson wasnt that bad

no much car on the road

i felt worried at first

caused i haven been driving for 2 months

a lil worried i might not be able to drive well

but everything went smoothly

.......................

hope next driving lesson will be the same

i hope i can pass my 2nd attempt for my TP

ahhhhhh

i need more practices,

i need more confident

i need more luck toooo

hahahahaha

...................

after driving went home to rest awhile

shld meet daddy at 1130 for lunch

end up i fall asleep

by the time i woke up it was 11 already

bathed/prepared and chiong out

went to get a present for daddy then rushed over to meet him

he waited for me for nearly one hour

sorrrry !!

sorry for making you to wait

.....................

meet dar after lunch with daddy

i should reached suntec at 2pm

caused im meeting my friend at suntec

caused he needed to get running shoes from adidas

end up we reached suntec around 3pm

im sorrrry ping hong

ahhhh

had been making people waited for the whole day

first it was my dad, then now ping hong

sorry people

...................

dar wanna get a PSP

so we cabbed down to SIM LIM

went to look for ah min at her office

then we went around asking the price for psp

liew

i din know buying smth in sim lim was so troublesome

there's too many shops there

people quoting different prices

its so hard to choose

end up dar went over to the place his friend intro to him

270 bucks for psp,

51 bucks for memory stick

......................

after buying psp

we went down to beach road

caused i wanna get cheap bag there

hahahah

end up i bought one bagpack

& one sling bag

it wasnt that cheap after all

anyway i love the sling bag

its a super duper old army bag

classify as old school vintage army bag

......................

headed down to raffles city to meet dar's father for dinner

ate over at DING TAI FONG
after dinner we went down to Cineleisure

wanna catch a movie

end up there's isnt any slot

was super duper sian

so dar suggested to board any random bus

and see where the bus will lead us to

but i refused

end up we went over to vivo

slacked around there

then took bus home

LOVE !!

im pointing middle finger; FUCK

2008-05-08T02:59:00.002+08:00

its 3am in the morning
& im still here

guessed what
im strucked with this Hospitality Management Project
& im FUCKING PISSED OFF CAN !
this time i could really feel that im running out of patience

i couldnt endure all these shit anymore
i just hate it can
imagined at these hour you are still here
imagined the rest of your friends sleeping soundly
imagined you gonna wake up in another few hours time
& get ready for school
which mean im only left with 4hours to sleep
i couldnt TAKE IT ANYMORE !
im tired tooo
the shit im going thr
i guess you just could not understand

no matter how NICE A PERSON IS
there's always a limit
PLEASE DONT TRY TO CROSS THE BOUNDARY
i keep quiet doesnt mean anything

despress/restless/moodless/shag...

2008-05-06T10:35:00.002+08:00

if you ask me what i wish to do now?

i will answer you : SLEEP !
lots of lots of SLEEP.
i need to sleep
i want to sleep
&
im lacking of sleep
BASICALLY IM TIRED LAR !

everyday for me is
school/work
school/work
school/work
school/work
school/work

JUST FOR THE SAKE OF MONEY !
im working like a bull
im making myself look so dead

is money really so important?

tuesday class is killing me.
SERIOUSLY
whenever tuesday come
i will feel super duper sad
im afraid i couldnt wake up for class;
and i will receive warning letter again,
maybe next will be debarrment letter instead of warning letter.

i hate to rot alone in the library for fucking 3hours;
just to wait for 1pm class,
its totally pointless.
a waste of time only.

i hate to meet my mentor after my IS class;
talking to him is also pointless
=x
and in fact,
i hate talking to him.
maybe i have prejudice towards him.

i hate to work after school,
because im feeling shag after a long day in school.
all i hope was i could go home after school
and accompany my mum for dinner
cause im working everyday after school.
& by the time i reach home,
my mum was asleep already.
& when i wake up for school,
she went out to work already.

SIGHS
projects/projects/projects
i couldnt even find time to work on my projects
dateline/dateline/dateline
ahhhh
all the project dateline are adding to my stress level

if i could
i really hope to scream aloud in the library NOW
im feeling so fucking terrible now
my head hurts like fuck
my body is so weak
my brain is not working at all

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Perfect Housewife. LOL (:

2008-05-04T22:29:00.007+08:00

Im a Perfect Housewife.

LOL =x

finally my room become a lil NEATER

hahahahaha

after years

& FINALLY LAR

suddenly feel like packing my room

SOOOO..

i packed/cleared/vacuum/mopped my room

then went to mopped the whole house

as i promised my mummy i will help her

after that

went to washed all my clothes

WOOHOO

tiring but i feel DAMN GOOD
after finishing all the house chores

well done BEE

HAHAHAHAHAHHA

my new created:
Notice Board
(:

PS : WHAT THE FUCK
checked my mail
&
GUESSED WHAT
i kena warning letter
hello
i only missed one of the lesson
&
im given warning letter
i really have difficulties waking up for tuesday's 8am class
SIGHS !

___________________________________________________

Saturday
o3.o5.2oo8
SHOPPING DAY with dar

spent whole day together
wah
first time we really spent one whole shopping
damn tired =x
basically
the whole day was WALKED + EAT + LAUGH + BUY

first stop : Meridian Hotel's FOOD COURT
hahahahaha
brought dar there for NICE YUMMY KOREAN FOOD
its was my store manager who brought me there
then i knew about this place

second stop : Far East Shopping Plaza
cabbed down from Meridian to Far East
wah the weather was damn HOT
so dar suggested to cab down
shopped around
& i realised i haven go far east for YEARS !
the whole place changed so much
im getting OLD !
one more year and im no LONGER TEENAGER !
ROAR !!
sinnful sia
i ate waffle & ice cream
my korean food haven disgested
& im there eating waffle
my stomach is getting bigger each day if i continued to eat like this

third stop : Wisma
nothing much
bought boxer @ TopShop

then we proceed to our fourth stop : Cineleisure
hahahahaha
dar wanted to watch Iron Man
but he dint know i already booked tickets for him
went over to Cineleisure and
he said he wanted to check the slot for Iron Man
so i kept quiet and went to ckeck with him
end up he suggested we should watch Iron Man first
then dinner
so no choice
i told him actually i booked tickets already
=x

fifth stop : Marina Sq
so we went to search for places for dinner
dar suggested Seoul Garden first
cause he said i keep complaint i haven eat bbq food for years
but he forgotten LAST SAT WE JUST HAVE BBQ FOR HIS BDAY !!
lol
so we decided to go Marina Sq
went to StarBuck for a drink
we really couldnt decided where to eat
end up
we decided to draw lots
first we listed down all the restaurants
then we draw
but end up
we decided to go Fish & Co @ Suntec
cause over there dar could get to watch soccer match

so
we headed over to suntec
sixth stop : Suntec City
went straigh to Fish & Co
not much people
but Bad News
they dont telecast soccer match
so we decided to eat &
go over to DXO for the match

seventh stop :DXO
our fav drinks
WaterMelon Vodka
(:

after the whole match
we headed down to Cathay for Iron Man
LAST STOP : The Grand Cathay
on the bus
we both did something SILLY
we tried to take photos with
OUR TEETH SHOWN !
obviously

WE FAILED !
LOL
see the photos and you will know
DONT LAUGH PLEASE !
HAHAHAHAHAH

Iron Man was SUPER DUPER NICE !
IM IN LOVE WITH THREE GUYS TONIGHT !

Park Ji Sung - Manchester United
Wayne Rooney - Manchester United
Robert Downey Jr -Iron Man
(:

bye people
i shall get some rest
9am lesson tmr
am i be able to reach on time?

IM ROTTING ):

2008-04-29T10:20:00.004+08:00

OH MY GOD.

can somebody entertain ME?

sighs

im rotting in NGEE ANN LIBRARY

i hate tuesday

i seriously HATE TUESDAY

8am - 10am lesson

then gonna wait for 3HOURS for 1pm lesson

WHAT THE FUCK

AHHHHHH

suppose to do some research for my FYP

but im not in the mood of doing anything

bishi is sick

so maybe later i shall call the mentor

and cancel the meeting with him

im feeling so sleepy

slept on the bus,

keep dozing off in class

even now im in the library

i feel like lying on the TABLE AND SLEEP

HOW HOW HOW

LOOK AT THE TIME NOW

ITS 10.45am ONLY

my friends haven finish class yet

& im FUCKING HUNGRY !

im feeling so shitty now

if only things are different

if only im in the same class as them

if only

WHATEVER SHIT LAR

its too late to say if only if only

what am i suppose to do now

maybe i shall just open up my lecture notes

& STUDY
no point for me to keep complaining right
shall TRY to do some work now

working at 6pm later
SHAG.

FINALLY.

2008-04-22T17:50:00.002+08:00

FINALLY

finally i get it done
after going thr so much of shit
finally i get it done !!
YEAH !!
but more to come

sighs !!
i got my budget
i got my worries
i got so much so much to consider
planning & organising is not easy
trying to make things work is even worst
AHHHH
my head is getting bigger each day
thanks friends for helping me
(:
i appreciated

_______________________________

i have a dream ytd
i dreamt that i was late for class
end up
WHO KNOWS
im really late for class today
8am class
sooo
i skipped again
i feel like slapping myself
hopefully next week im able to wake up
if not i will recieve WARNING LETTER SOON
but im really tired
normally if i work on monday
im sure i cant wake up for my tuesday class one
but im trying lar
AHHHHH
ROARS !

since i skipped the morning class
i went school ard 12
meet amy/deng hao for lunch
hmm
im tired till i din even go make my ez link card
lesson started at 1
and finished around 3
and off to meet my FYP MENTOR
discussed awhile and
off to meet the other grpmates
stayed in school till 6 plus
then headed home

i feel good when i dont have to work after school
i feel good when i get to accompany my mummy for dinner
i feel good when i can go home and rest after school
i feel good when i know i got enough time to do my project/tutorial
i feel good when i dont have to work till so hard for extra money
i feel good.

BOO

AHHH; my SUAY day

2008-04-21T23:37:00.006+08:00

IM FUCKING SHAG & SUAY,

i did mention i lost my ez link card right
FUCK
alright skip that
im supposed to wake up at 730am
end up i overslept
and i missed my 9am lecture
OH PLEASE
it was just the 2nd week of school only
and i skipped one lecture already
ahhhhhh
(suay incident 1)

i cabbed to school for my 11am tutorial
slighty late for my tutorial
but its still okay
after tutorial met amy/joo/bishi/babe for lunch
im glad i still have them in school can
after which i went for lecture with them
SAM lecture will never be BORED
cause i got a lecturer who loves to talk
and heng his topic never failed to make us bored
when lecture was about to end
something SUAY happened
the zip of my bag went crazy
the whole zip spoiled !!!
here goes my fav bag
MY GREEN SUPER DUPER BIG BAG PACK
sighs !
so i have to carry my bag around without being able to zip it up
so meaning the pocket of my bag was OPEN !
(suay incident 2)

my school should end at 5
but it ended earlier
so i headed down to work
i was happy at first,
tot i could go grab something to eat since im early
but who knows
third suay incident coming
i was listening to my music
and slowly slowly..
slowly.
I FALL ALSEEP ON THE BUS
occasionally i will wake up and checked
i remmbered waking up at town
and i told myself im not supposed to sleep anymore
but end up i fall alseep again
and
SUDDENLY i woke up
finding myself somewhere in CHINATOWN
i saw one of the passenger pressing the bell
so i followed him & alighted the bus
oh my
to my horror
i realised
i dont know where AM I ???
i walked around and found out
im STUCKED
so no choice
i took a cab
the whole cab fare cost me $9.75
close to 10 BUCKS !
FUCK !
(suay incident 3)

im damn depressed can !!
spent unneccessary money on unneccessary things
sighs !

during work
i recieved a news
WAH
i really nearly went INSANE !
my whole mind was filled with "HOW HOW HOW?"
ahhhhh
shall not eleborated much
AHHH
what a suay day for me !
(suay incident 4)

im hope what happened today
can give me luck for the rest of my week
(:
maybe the rest of my life
hahahaha
FAT HOPE !!

BYE
BEE IS SUPER DUPER SAD !
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