F.U.C.K

its just not my day
i failed my traffic police test
wah
it seems like the whole world gonna fall on me
im so fucking depressed can
maybe im too eager to get my license
maybe i wanted to pass so badly
that end up
everything become a mess
before i went for my test
i went circuit with my instructor to do some warmed up
i made so many mistakes
my whole mind went blank
i could not do my parking well
i could not turn properly
it was my worst performance
my instructor was damn fucking pissed off with me
not only him
im pissed off with myself
i blamed myself
i blamed the heavy rain
i hated myself
i hated the heavy rain
my instructor was saying the heavy rain doesnt affected MUCH
the problem lies on the driver who was ME
so im the problem lar
FUCK

when it came to the actual test
im so dead !!
i made mistakes here & there
and as a result
of cause
I FAILED !!!!

so fucking depressing
so fucking disappointed
AHHHHHHH

alright
im so fucking depressed & upset for the whole evening
the heavy rain made my mood even worse
i refused to talk
refused to do anything
i just sat on the sofa and stone
stone all the way to 8pm
went to meet my mum for dinner
im venting all my disappointment & anger on food
i ate all i can
damn fucking full
my mum was telling me to try again
& dont be dishearted
and ALSO STOP VENTING MY ANGER ON FOOD
=x
cant helped it
im used to it
my way of making myself feel better
sighs !
still can get over it.

Oh ya
shir came my hse today to make sushi
it was actually a surprised for victor & my dar
shir managed to surprise victor i guessed
but im not able to surprise my dar
cause we made the sushi on a day that he was in camp
well
i'll think of something else
IM FULL OF RUBBISH IDEAS (:
lazy to blog
see the photos instead.

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