was unable to blog for the past few days
had been busy with my uncle's wake
everything ended on monday
the past few days wasnt easy for everyone
esp my grandma & grandpa
its hard for the rest of my uncles & aunties as well
last day was the worst
everyone cried while sending our uncle off for the very last time

it was my first time seeing close relative passed away
my first time staying up for few nights at the wake
my first time sitting & standing so close to a coffin
i hope it will be the first & the last time
i know human cannot avoid death neither we can control death
but i really dont wish to see anymore death
its too painful for the people living
they need time to go back to their normal life
but how much time do they need?
one month?
one year?
or even the entire of their life?
its not easy to forget
its not easy to get back to normal life
even we use the entire life time to forget
to get back to normal life
the pain still exist.