am i so insignificant?
am i?
Am i?
AM i?



i hate this feeling.



get lost lar
everything is getting on my nerve
people;
projects;
time management;


but
im glad
cause this gonna be over soon






fuck;
im feeling super shag
my head is aching like fuck
im yawning non-stop
tears keep rolling down from my eyes



i can sleep ANYWHERE
see what i type
yes. ANYWHERE !

when i take bus to school
i sleep on the bus


when i take bus or train to work
i sleep either on the bus or in the train (while standing in the train)


when i take bus home after my work
i sleep my way home


inside the lift
i would close my eyes and rest even though the whole ride is less than a minute
i would take all the chance i can to rest

im lacking of sleep
everyday i look so dead
in school or at my workplace
i look equally DEAD.

im glad i skipped IS today
and done up quite a bit of my FYP
MR.ASS is pleased with our report
(:
he even joke with us today
but i dont find it funny at all lar
he said "KEEP FOCUS !"
alright
i shall keep focus
i guess im addicted to those security books i borrowed from the library
i find it pretty interesting to read
alright
shall stop blogging
time for PROJECT(S)
BYE !

i cant believe it

SCHOOL REOPEN LE !
oh
knn.fuck off lar

2 weeks just passed likedat
i din nothing at all
seriously
just work & work for the 2 whole week

i did mention said i hate tues right
AND YES
im feeling so dead now
few more hours to 12am
and it will be TUESDAY
fuck
fyp report not done at all
i really dont know how man
OH PLEASE
the question now is not how how how
but think what should i do for my fyp now
maybe i should start putting in effort
double effort is needed now
time is running out
4 more weeks to the dateline for my fyp draft submittion
):
my stress level is RAISING LIKE DONT KNOW WHAT
sighs

so many dateline coming up
i guess is no longer dateline
but DEAD-LINE !

What the fuck are projects man?!?
Get a life !!

oh fuck.



I AM NOT HAPPY !
i cant describe the feeling inside me
alone?
lost?
stress?
emo?
i totally have no idea at all






school is starting soon
whenever i think of it
i feel so fed up
i think my FYP gonna be a FAIL GRADE
this is adding to my stress level

sometime i just wonder
how long more can i endure?
i hate tuesday
i hate going blk 34/ level 5-15
i hate talking to MR.ASS (my nick for him)
i hate thinking to how to entertain MR.ASS
how can i cope with MR.ASS's FUCKING ATTITUDE
i just hate him !
FUCKING CHEE BYE LAR !



went school today for tourism project
reached around 930am
do awhile then went for lunch
then off to work
suppose to be off today
but my mummy eileen (my in-charge if you guys do not knw) is working today
so i change my off day to tmr instead
was feeling kinda upset
more to disappointment i guessed
dar supposed to book out today
and of cause im so disappointed because
he could not book out today
):



reached my workplace around 3.15pm
not in the mood of doing anything
end up
i decided to pack my store-room instead
anyway
thats my intention also
i change my off day to tmr cause i wanna pack store-room with mummy
so packed/arranged the whole day



an unexpected guest came to invite me at work today
(:
its was my cousin, carolyn
she even bought me muffin
seriously
im feeling quite touched & happy
is like at least someone still remember you & care for you

she make my day man (:







anyway i have this real bad habit
whenever im feeling stress/upset/unhappy
i will start biting my nails
fuck lar
my nails could not grow at all
cause i dont even give them chance to grow
i will bite bite bite NON-STOP !

TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, VEG-TABLE !!

when you look me in the eyes;
i know i have fall for you
you gave me a pocketful of sunshine
& i promise you will always be my baby
(:

dont be surprise
hahaha
all these are the songs that im currently addicted to

LOL

shall go sleep sooon
im tired
gonna reach school at 9 tmr for project
fuck
i have not bathe yet
=x

Labels: when you look me in the eyes

i did smth wrong in the morning

i was sleeping
& my mum came into my room
she asked me to help her passed smth to my aunty before i go work
alright
i already promised her the night before i will do that
but before she went out to work in the morning today
she came in to my room
and keep repeating the task she asked me to do
i felt so irritating that she kept repeating it
so i answered her back with my eyes closed (half awake)

ME : if you so scare i forget, you go give aunty the thing yourself lar !!!
MUMMY : (in an angry tone) WHAT ARE YOU SAYING !
ME : i said, if you are so scare i never pass to her, you passed to her yourself lar !!
MUMMY : (SUPER ANGRY TONE) IF I GOT TIME, I DONT NEED YOU TO HELP ME
MUMMY : YOU THINK YOU LIKEDAT SAID CORRECT A NOT !!
ME : (keep quiet and continue to lie on my bed with my eyes closed =x )


and she stomped out of my room
after she went out
i felt so AHHHHH
i know i shouldnt said that to her
but i felt so irritated when she kept repeating when im sleeping
=x

felt quite pissed with myself now
when i got home just now
i felt weird
mummy was talking on the phone
so i din even greet her
and i went into my room
i guessed mummy felt disappointed with me
fuck
but i dont knw what should i do to make the situation better

AHHHHH
this shit
make my whole mood so sucky now
#I!&$#)@#&$@#)$*@)*$

OH MY
monday blues can
work is freaking boring
ahhhh
and im feeling super duper tired
im lacking of sleep

friday.
bad day
oh fuck
cause i failed again
after that
meet dar for dinner at Vivo
then head down to Rc to meet adidas crews
went zouk with adidas crews
reached home ard 4am

saturday.
woke up around 10 plus in the morning
then slacked my afternoon off
then went out to accompany shir to get some adidas tops at Cathay
then Father's Day Dinner @ Gombak
after that
went to catch Kung Fu Panda at West Mall
(:

sunday.
busy day
jun ming cousin's BIG DAY
he is getting married
hahahah
slept around 4am in the morning
woke up at 6am to prepare to fetch the bride
everything end around 12plus
head down to Lot One with my family for coffee
met dar to shop around before i head home to prepare for the wedding dinner
reached home rest awhile
then prepared for the dinner
took lots of photos with my cousin(S)
hahahahah
everyone seems to change
i guess is because i haven see them for a long time


alright
photos will be post up ASAP
sorry
caused i haven zip the photos
and
basically
im lazy lar
=x

hahahahah
watched Kung Fu Panda with dar/shir/victor
OMG
lucky i watched it
damn fucking funny can
im in love with this panda
anyone wanna buy me Kung Fu Panda's Soft Toy (:

fucked up lar

how many time must i re-take?
i hope this will be my last time re-taking !

PASS PLEASE !
):

Labels: let me PASS PLEASE

currently im addicted to this song:
His Mistakes (:

AWWW
is damn emo the song
check out the lyrics
(:



Usher - His Mistakes lyrics

im feeling damn upset now
the feeling is beyond words

im not happy at all
):

ALL down; its holiday !!

well well well
2 weeks holiday?
i doubt its wont be a fun/relaxing holiday for me
BECAUSE
i will be working on weekdays
and im left with my weekend there
struggling with my FYP
and other stupid projects which will due when school starts


SAM paper down
im kind of disappointed with myself
i studied for my paper
i memorized the points
YES I DID
but guessed what
i could not remembered a lot of point when i tried to answer
wtf wtf wtf wtf !
WTF !!
im like WHAT THE FUCK !?!
i dint finished my paper in time as well
wheee
a pass or a fail?
i cant decided anymore
its my lecturer's decision
):

dar has gone out for field camp
will only be back on saturday morning
sighs !
supposed to go out with my classmates after paper
but there's a change of plan
so i will go out with my small fish aunty & my lil cousin later instead
need to get clothing for my cousin's wedding
oh well
SAD.
SADED.

boring life/
boring day/
boring mood.
bye boring me !



i hate to look into the mirror
cause i look like a PIG
i hate to try clothing
cause i cant fit into those clothing
and the feeling SUCKS
@!U#)@!)(
i hate myself
cause i cant stop eating
i hate myself
cause i cant control my own emotions
i hate myself
cause i cant make myself happy
i hate myself
cause i dont have confidence at all
i hate i hate i hate
i really HATE MYSELF

Labels: what's my next emo track in my playlist.

.stupid note.

cookie from Naz (:

dar & me

Yum Yum

star-shape pan cake by ME (:

farewell present from Hans
):

dumb

Hello; speaking?

Our Queen



2 in 1?

hoodie siao

what a face


hmmm

Adidias's Model

Jump Jump

odd one out

Let's JUMP



children & mummy


(:

BYE

HAHAHAHAHAHA
i know its super random lar

okay
whenever i want to fart in front of my dar
i will MAKE LOTS LOTS LOTS OF NOISE
reason very simple
so i can cover the fart sound
=x
WAHAHAHAHAH
random !

YAWNS

one down; two more to go
first Common Test paper today
hmm
i hope i wont fail
actually
to achieve a A grade it not difficult at all
cause basically the lecturer has already told us
all the qn are from Tutorial Qn
and when i saw the paper today
it was really all the Tutorial Qn
but
hahahahaha
i dint memorize hard enough
so when i wrote my answer
some points lacking here and there
i think not some of the point
is A LOT OF POINTS LEH !
siao liao
=x

BMD paper tmr
God Blesssss
hahahahaha
shall go start mugging now
TIME IS RUNNING OUT !
but
im feeeling so duper restlesssss lar !!

ROARS
U#)(@$)(@#*$)*$)(@

been feeling weird this past few days
bad-temper/emo/stress/mix feeling blah blah blah
basically NOTHING GOOD AT ALL !
alright

time to MUG
bye people