ALL down; its holiday !!

well well well
2 weeks holiday?
i doubt its wont be a fun/relaxing holiday for me
BECAUSE
i will be working on weekdays
and im left with my weekend there
struggling with my FYP
and other stupid projects which will due when school starts


SAM paper down
im kind of disappointed with myself
i studied for my paper
i memorized the points
YES I DID
but guessed what
i could not remembered a lot of point when i tried to answer
wtf wtf wtf wtf !
WTF !!
im like WHAT THE FUCK !?!
i dint finished my paper in time as well
wheee
a pass or a fail?
i cant decided anymore
its my lecturer's decision
):

dar has gone out for field camp
will only be back on saturday morning
sighs !
supposed to go out with my classmates after paper
but there's a change of plan
so i will go out with my small fish aunty & my lil cousin later instead
need to get clothing for my cousin's wedding
oh well
SAD.
SADED.

boring life/
boring day/
boring mood.
bye boring me !



i hate to look into the mirror
cause i look like a PIG
i hate to try clothing
cause i cant fit into those clothing
and the feeling SUCKS
@!U#)@!)(
i hate myself
cause i cant stop eating
i hate myself
cause i cant control my own emotions
i hate myself
cause i cant make myself happy
i hate myself
cause i dont have confidence at all
i hate i hate i hate
i really HATE MYSELF

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